I Love Jordan-Health Care

My love for Jordan is unconditional; it is like the way you love your family, you don’t choose your family but you still love them no matter who they are …

Unfortunately as I get older, I discover things about my beloved country that I don’t like, as a grown up you start worrying about more serious stuff , like your future and the future of your kids, and honesty I am super scared about health care.

There is an obvious problem with Labor Law and the Private Health Insurance System, per labor law the employer is obligated to pay for health insurance, which is a wonderful thing! But the problem is it doesn’t insure that employees will get appropriate health care!!!

Why??

Because insurance companies can refuse many medicines, or laboratory test for no good reason, like “this medication is not covered because of taxation issues!!!” Or” this laboratory test is not covered because it is not directly related to your medical case!!”

At the end of the day I don’t have enough medical knowledge to know if I truly need the medicine/test or not and of course I can’t trust my health insurance company because I know they have “business reason” to refuse my medication, on the other hand I can’t trust my doctor!!! coz he has a “business reason“ as well to sell medical products, and get his “reward” from medicine companies

That is not the worst part of the system, the worst part is that it is almost impossible for anyone to stay with the same health insurance company, because when you change your job you automatically have to change your health insurance to your new employer’s one, or your employer can simply at any time -without any notification- change your health insurance company or contract, what does that mean?? It means that you have to admit any disease or health issue you have to your new health insurance provider and it will not be covered (although it was previously covered), the funniest part is that when you retire you automatically lose your health insurance, that already doesn’t cover most of your diseases, and you have to apply for a new one again!

I wonder who created this system? And what is it that they lack to be able to understand that it simply doesn’t serve the purpose of insuring that people get proper health care? Don’t they care about Jordan?? Don’t they care about the people?

It doesn’t need a genius to figure out that there is a problem in the system!!! Ok then obviously someone responsible knows there is a problem and doesn’t care! Is it that he doesn’t care? Or maybe he cares for something else? let’s admit it health insurance within the current system is very profitable; law enforces private companies to pay for health insurance and health insurance companies cuts most of their costs by refusing test, medicines, cases and not covering previous diseases

It makes me also wonder, is it possible for a private health system to provide good health care? And is it possible in any way for a private health care system not be corrupted?? Will doctors in Jordan be happy if people are healthy? the business model targets for health care provides are having more people sick and selling more medicine while the targets of health insurance companies are to get more contracts but less people severed !!!

Enough! I got sick from all this!

Stolen and sold

I went few days ago, to look for glass to do some hand crafts, and while looking, I was asking about the glass suppliers in the country and where do they get it from.

The very bad news was that it is imported!! Imported in the land of sand!!!!

I remembered that when I was at school they took us to the glass factory in the south, What happened to it ???

Stolen!!! oh I remember , I heard something like that, but being the “stupid optimistic positive” person I am, the beautiful memory of the factory working and producing stuck to my head , and never got updated with the story of it being stolen and closed.

Sad Sad Sad …

Sand is one of the very few resources we have.

The sand of our beloved stolen country can produce the best quality glass in the world.

We stole ourselves, our country and the hungry poor people.

They say foreigners bought the factory --BRAVO

What breaks my heart every day , is that steeling –in any form- nowadays is not a secret , it is not something that people are shy talking about , it is something many people are proud of the “7ideg” way they do it , and they will try to convince you and teach you how to do it in the mean of helping you!!

Yesterday my fiancé read me a poem of Muthafar Al- Nuab, it happened that is related to the subject, here are few lines from it:


لا تلم الكافر في هذا الزمن الكافر"
فالجوع ابو الكفار
مولاي!!
انا في صف الجوع الكافر
"ما دام الصف الاخر يسجد من ثقل الاوزار


مظفر النواب-وتريات ليلية

Cheers ;)

Live as if you are drawing

I am taking drawing classes, and I am enjoying it so much..

I always believed, that results are not worth the work and effort if you do not enjoy the work process

If you do not enjoy your job, and you work only for the salary, then you are living in hell

Same goes for studying, cooking, sports, everything …

And I believe that there is always a beautiful enjoyable way for doing everything you need... you just need to find it

Back to my classes, It reminds me of the observer’s post , he talks about growing up after a certain age not growing old,he found that in reading and many might find it many other things, what makes you "grow up" is the way you perceive everything you do ..

What I like about the classes is that you can apply the taught techniques to almost everything in life..

One of the things we are learning, is looking at the subject we are drawing as a whole, and drawing its frame first…then looking at the small parts and details.. And after that allowing the details to correct the big picture

It is a skill that some people naturally have, depending on the dominant brain part (read about left /right brain parts –it is interesting)

Sometimes we catch part of the problem and work on it forgetting about the main objective and the big picture, that happens a lot in software development, people immediately start thinking about part of the technical problem forgetting about the other parts connected to it and forgetting about the business goals ending up with a solution that doesn’t serve the user.

Another amazing thing is that drawing is about presenting multi dimensional objects with two dimensions, (very similar to database design but that is another story), It requires erasing all what you have learned about a shape or an object and looking at things simply , sometimes you draw a very long street using short lines because of the angle …

Usually life is simple, but our experiences make us complicate things, for example, falling in love is beautiful and simple, but sometimes the pervious bad experiences make us fear to proceed, or make us over analyze things or assume that the same bad things will happen again… unfortunately I see that happening to people everyday … if you just look at things as if you are drawing them..You’ll realize that it is not another long street it is only two short lines and you are already far away from where you started

Homosexuality and freedom

I have always been gay friendly, well…I am everything friendly , at the end of the day if it is something personal and it doesn’t affect me , I don’t care ..

I didn’t know much about homos , I didn’t really know if it is a choice or a sickness , but I thought something is wrong with these people and definitely they are not normal , but no one is “normal”!! What is normal anyway??

I started to learn about homosexuality only when a close friend of mine told me he is gay, many theories, many possible reasons , and I am not here to convince anyone that they are not sick or that they didn’t choose to be gay … because it doesn’t matter , does it ?

With time I got to know more homosexual people, and I don’t think it is a coincidence that many of them are interesting , creative and special … I think it is a result of what they had to go through. Each one of them reached a point where he realized he is gay, where he finds out that he is not like his parents, and usually most of what we learn about relationships and life -in general- we learn from watching our parents, we usually think that that is what is “normal”.

When one is faced with THE fact, then his background doesn’t matter, culture doesn’t matter, not even religion will matter, nothing will matter anymore, what he feels is the only fact, he will have to believe himself, his mind and his body not anything he was taught.

If one –at that age – breaks the norm then he is forced to become a free man, he naturally stops to be a blind follower, it opens the door for him to explore all possibilities and all solutions, that way of thinking affects all aspects of his life, he doesn’t not fear thinking differently about anything and he starts living his way.

I think that most people are blind followers unless they are slapped in the face or living in an intercultural environment, people who live in closed communities usually think that there is only one way of living, because if you always see the sky blue, and you have never seen pink sky you’ll believe that the sky is blue, but if you see a pink and green and yellow sky, it will be easy to accept that there is many sky colors.

Personally I believe that freedom is not a natural need or instinct for humans (maybe for some animals!), it is something we learn from our experiences , and gays are an example of people who had to grow into free people.

La vida es un carnaval

I have too much happiness in my blood today.. I wore the colors I like this morning and the necklaces that I adore and normal people think they do not match.. oh god, I love wearing things that do not match ..

--I know I sound stupid when I am happy

Today I am in a state of mind that makes me feel that everything I do is dancing …

A while ago a friend asked about my dream, I thought for few minutes , everything passed through my mind … my family , career , people around me , children, art , painting, travelling, making a change … so many small dreams .. and then I remembered an advice from an old friend … be happy and make the people around you happy that is my dream .. Very simple.. Small but veeery big..

--Yes, I sound so stupid when I am happy, and my thoughts are not organized, I don’t care, I am happy:)

Who are the people who I appreciate the most? the people who taught me how to be happy and yes happiness is something to be learned , a state of mind , a habit .. and a beLIEf

I wish you all a wonderful day :)

Life from a BI perspective

Every point in life is multidimensional, you can look at it from deferent dimensions/angles, each time you see/understand a deferent image but never the real one, reality is all the dimensions together which is even hard to imagine for humans.

That is why we have different opinions and that is why no one is ever right.

God bless sciences and technology.

Women’s sexual health- Part I

You know how in every period there is something you’re thinking of, thoughts keep bombarding you, omens are all around you and you’re left with no choice but thinking about it, reading and searching it …

This time it is “women’s sexual health” it all started when a family friend told me an awful story about the “Yemeni Khinjar” -the traditional knife in Yemen- he said that women in Yemen are circumcised and the vaginal opening is narrowed to insure that women will stay virgin till marriage, when a woman gets married her husband uses his “Khinjar” to reopen her vagina !!! Interesting!!!

I couldn’t stop thinking of it , I wished the story was wrong , so I started reading about it ..

Here is what I got from the web :

•“Female genital cutting (FGC) refers to the excision or tissue removal of any part of the female genitalia for cultural, religious or other non-medical reasons. It is also frequently referred to as female genital mutilation (FGM) or female circumcision (FC)”

•Where is it practiced? Africa , Yemen, Oman, Emirates and Egypt – I stayed in Oman for two months and I can tell you they are proud of their “Khinjar”

•There are many types of FGC, it depends on how much of the female genitalia is removed (it can vary from removing a small part to removing it all), and if the opening is narrowed or not, in some cultures they only simulate the operation, by causing some bleeding and celebrating.

•Why do they do it? To make sure women stay virgin till marriage and to improve men’s sexual experience. In some cultures they wouldn’t consider a woman feminine if she is not circumcised.

•Although science says that the removed parts are essential for getting orgasm, 90% of circumcised women interviewed for some survey claim they experienced orgasm.

•Medical consequences are terrible, infections happen because the operation is done without any medical support, problems with menstrual cycle may happen because of narrowing the opening, and the cutting done by the husband for the first intercourse can cause very bad consequences as well.

The worst part is that the operation is done by women, usually mothers or relatives, and that many interviewed women think/say that this is a good practice and that it should continue.

I am the type of woman who thinks that we “Women” are stupid for accepting all silly inventions such as makeup, high heels, waxing…Etc that makes us beautiful tools for men to play with, unfortunately time is showing me that there is no limits for women’s stupidity and women abuse .